Just Enough

Today is the first day of finals week. I have just completed my very first final. I am hoping it went well. I keep sending it good thoughts wishing that there to be a way for my pencil marks to magically switch to the right answer. I am aware that this is an irrational thought but things happen during finals week and irrational thoughts are one of them. Surprisingly I am not very stressed at this moment. One explanation that I can think of for that bizarre occurrence is that I am in denial. Or maybe I am using my time wisely and that is helping. In fact I am happy. I am sitting in the beautiful science building with some friends and we are quietly concentrating on our studies (at least that is the idea). I am sitting by a huge window on a comfortable chair, listening to music that makes me happy, and I am getting that contented feeling....or maybe it is adrenaline kicking from the lack of sleep.... Whatever the reason I am happy, and that is good enough.

I am also at the very end of my first semester of college. So many things have happened. I feel different, and the same. I have matured and grown into myself in these few short months. I am grateful for my decision of colleges, and also for choosing to go to awakening. I am not sure what I would have done without it.

I have a good balance at the moment and I am thankful. I have just enough stress, just enough social time, and justtt enough sleep.

Hugs are a good thing

~A happy moment with one of my wonderful friends.~

The issues of being a night owl

I seem to have a little problem. My problem is the need to stay up late. I am a night owl in the worst possible way. I can go to sleep but, I do not. Why? I am not really sure. Maybe it has something to do with the quiet calm of the wee hours of the morning that keep me up. Perhaps I am just silly. Whatever the reason my mind works in the middle of the night. It is neutral time free time. Time that I would normally spend sleeping.....wasting... Although sleep is important it very easily takes the back burner when I use my strong stubborn as a mule will to ignore it. Don't worry I get sleep. It is just not quite enough of it. I suppose the main reason I am posting this rambling nonsense is... to remind myself that I really do not think my clearest in the middle of the night, I am in fact NOT nocturnal. Sleep is something that I need to partake in. Even though it is not as productive as I may think.

Sleepy time

zzzZZZZzzzzZZZZzzzz

~Hawk out

Fuzzy ears, good food, warm hugs, and soft noses

This weekend I had october break. And I went homeee!! I got to see my family and my animals. I went for a ride on my wonderful horse, and I slept in which was amazing.

My friends came over to see me. We had a little reunion and it was wonderful to see my friends from back home. It made me think about my life before college, and how my life would be if I had decided not to go to college. I am not sure what I would be doing. Maybe I would be traveling the world? Maybe I would be working somewhere? I think where I am is a good...but how can you ever be sure. Sooo my trip home kind of made me think a little bit. It made me think about when the next time I will be able to sleep all day. I know it is a silly thing to think about. Who wants to sleep all day? Well I might.

Over all my October break was wonderful. I enjoyed the simple pleasures of home: showering without flip flops, having a kitchen, soft toilet paper, puppy kisses, furry horse hugs, and wearing my pj's all day.

Until next time.

~Hawk out

College so far...

College... In a nut shell, I love it. I love living in a dorm and walking up a flight of stairs to see my friends. I love walking to classes, and the library, and to meals. I love the campus. I love the view of the valley and the hills. I love my classes (most of the time). I pretty much love college. So college so far has been wonderful.

on a scale of 1-10:

Friends = 10 (I love them)

Food = 7 (a tiny bit of organic, and a salad bar etc, but there is not any edible protein)

Classes = 9 (my teachers are good [mostly], and the classes are challenging)

Dorm = 9 (much, much, better than the co-ed dorm, and relativity quiet and clean)

Roommate = 7 (we live together peacefully, but we do not hang out outside of the dorm)

Campus =10 (drop dead gorgeous view, and can't beat the work out with all those hills)

Sanity = 5 (it comes and it goes, but over all I think I have more here than at home)

Equestrian Team = 6 (waking up early not so fun, lots of extra work too =[ )

That is college in a nut shell as of now. I will keep you updated as I go along.

~Hawk out

Home again home again lickity split

Today was a pretty good day. I woke up early to go to Head Start (the preschool program I volunteer at), and almost missed my ride...again. I seem to have a tendency to sleep past my alarm, or have the time set wrong, whatever the reason on Head Start mornings I have not been doing very well. This morning I woke up at 7:50. I looked at the ceiling rolled over, and magically fell back into blissful sleep. This decision was regretted when I woke up at 8:14 (we meet at 8:15) and looked at the clock. I may have uttered a few curse words at that point. Amazingly though I managed to make it to my friend's car by 8:18. It took me only four minutes to get dressed, put on makeup, eat breakfast, and run down the longest flight of stairs known to man.

After that my day went pretty smoothly. The children at head start were all very happy and relatively calm. I went home without any battle wounds. No one bit, scratched, or hit me, and that's always a plus.

But what made my day quite fine and dandy was the fact that 1. I have very little homework due tomorrow 2. I have no more midterms due 3. that it is absolutely gorgeous outside AND 4. I am going HOME this weekend to see all my family, and friends, and animals, and house, and food, and YAY! I am very happy about that. I have not been home since I first arrived here, on Saturday August 28th. I have been here for exactly 69 days. I feel as though I have been here for years. I know I will miss it though, even though I will only be gone for like 2 days. I love it here. My family and friends were right I do love college.

So look out Massachusetts!! Kaitlin is coming homeeee for a visit.

~Hawk out

P.S. The picture is of a view I experience multiple times a day. It is B-E-A-utiful here.

In the Wee Hours of the Morning

In the wee hours of the morning I am sitting on my computer writing on a silly blog. At this moment it is 2:36 in the morning. I am not quite yet ready to fall asleep yet though. I have many things on my mind.

Today I got the results back from my very first midterm EVER! I was sooooo very nervous about my midterm. I have never really had any formal testing in my life so the idea of a legit college midterm made me quake with terror. I was sure I was going to fail. I tried to keep those thoughts out of my head as much as possible though, and when my professor handed me the little blue book with the exam questions, I griped my pencil, thought of an answer and started writing..... I was one of the last people in the room to finish, and I filled the blue book all the way up except for one page at the end.

When my professor anounced that only two people got C's on the midterm I was convinced that I was one of them, "how embarrassing" I thought to myself. "How embarrassing to be one of the two people who got a C." Imagine my shock when the little blue book with my name on it had an A- written on it! Life was pretty good!!!

It is now almost 3am and I must be snoozing.... The alarm will not be a welcome noise tomorrow morning. I have to wake up to go to a preschool to volunteer for one of my classes. I go there twice week....but that is another story.

Good night (or good morning whichever you prefer).

~Hawk out

I Have a New Blog!!

Hey!

I am creating this blog for multiple reasons:

• Number one is so that people who love me can get an idea of what I am up to. I am not making any promises on how often I will update it. I am very busy.
• Number two is to be able to express my thoughts when I have them, in a creative way

Also I think it will be fun to blog about my crazy college life. There is so much going on, and I want to try and remember as much of it as possible.

So visit this blog as often as you wish, you never know what you may find. It is quite possible that the only thing to ever be posted on this blog is this one post, but then again there could be something new and exciting.

Enjoy =]

~Hawk out